A Pachyderm in Our Midst
Posted in Uncategorized on March 29th, 2006 by annetteOnce when the world was a little younger and words came more easily from my mouth than they should’ve, I said something I shouldn’t have to someone and as a result one day found myself being chased by a very angry young wild bull elephant across the (seemingly) vast Kenyan savannah. I was on foot and so was he, and to this day I can easily recall how the weight of him pounded and the ground shook as he ran after me. Needless to say, I learned a number of poignant lessons that day: 1. never joke about a Kenyan’s spear; 2. white people can run fast , too; 3. I should’ve paid more attention to all of those Wild Kingdom episodes.
In many ways, being involved in a small, start-up winery is like having a wild elephant around. Sometimes I run from it. Other times I’m running after it. And then sometimes I’m sitting astride it, looking out over the landscape and maybe even reveling a little in the accomplishment.
Nowhere to run, Nowhere to hide
I love my job, there’s no doubt about it. I have always enjoyed being involved in wine production and the many roles I’ve had an opportunity in in many various wineries over the years. This is something I’ve learned over the years: the title “winemaker” and all of the responsibilities with the title vary from winery to winery. Winemakers for large corporate wineries tend to do a lot of tastings, sit in a lot of meetings, ask for samples to be brought to them, and talk to a lot of people. Winemakers in medium-sized wineries do anything from fix the bottling line to directing cellar staff, act as a liason between winery ownership and directors and staff and cellarcrew, and possibly manage vineyards as well. Winemakers for small wineries, I have discovered, can be found doing just about anything at any given time whether it’s making a sales call to a local restaurant, planning marketing and financial strategies, making sure everyone gets paid on time, fixing that leaking barrel, purchasing grapes and working with growers on how to manage the vines, cleaning drains…..you get the idea. To a certain extent I enjoy absolutely everything that comes with the job, but there are things from which I do find myself running at times. Budgets, revenue projections, pricing decisions, doing lab work, bottling and preparation for bottling — these are all things I tend to avoid (that’s what I’m doing right now).
Something else: the landscape of this project is often vast and there’s simply nowhere to hide. It’s true. What I’ve discovered is that it essentially involves putting oneself out there, opening oneself up to criticism in one way or another, and at some point realizing and accepting that your being humbled everyday.
But Wait for Me!
When we first conceived of this project there was so much at the time that remained to be decided — package design, marketing and sales strategies, our marketing identity, bottling times, release dates. Many of these factors we had control of, it was just a matter of time before they resolved themselves. But also at the beginning, so many unanswered questions and uncertainties floated around: What will the wine be like? How will we be received? Will this winery be a success? Will it be profitable? Many of those questions are still unanswered, but so many things have changed over the course of the last year and half that we are sometimes dumbfounded by where we are today. The packaging and website have taken a life of their own. Folks are calling or emailing to order wine. Our chardonnay is almost sold out. Some wine buyers recently practically flipped when they tasted our pinot — they liked it that much. So, along the way, we hoped that all these things will happen, but when they have, I have realized this is no longer in our control. Sometimes it seems like it has become a lumbering pachyderm with a mind of it’s own and is setting it’s own course, inspite of me or anything else. I’ve come to accept that we are at that stage where once you’ve set something free you better hang on and enjoy the ride, or at the very least, the chase!
This is Good
Then there are the beautiful moments when all comes together: Harvest is over! Bottling is over! Those catwalks we installed over the tanks are the best! Wow — that wine is tasting good! These are the times when we can congratulate each other and ourselves for a job well done, and they are times to look behind us while on top of that elephant and see how far we have come. At the same time, we can also look out far ahead and see how far we have yet to go. It is the time when we feel like we’re riding high, and realize, yes, it is all good.